Running

I run for a lot of reasons, some being physical and some well most being emotional. I love to run and I love the feeling of having accomplished something great than myself when done. I am not the typical thin runner type body structure....I'm fat, there I said it, BUT that being said I can move this large mass for over 13.1 miles, and I do pretty well if I must say so. I will never ever be a size 2, I will never ever weigh 100 lbs and I'm ok with that.I love the looks when people realize that I run half marathons for fun, they can't believe someone my size can actually move this large body for that many miles....so this blog post took a turn, sorry. Anywho....
Back to why I run...I run to free myself of the many stresses in my life at this particular time. My dad is dying he is now on end stage dialysis and not doing well, he has a closed head injury and most days doesn't know who I am, and that frankly sucks. Another stress in my life is the ex husband who refuses to move on, he hates that running has given me unknown freedom, it literally saved me after the divorce. He was never a supporter of my running and honestly it is he who said I would never be a real runner, because I was fat, you see in his eyes I was never thin enough, never fast enough, and never good enough to be a runner. Well holy cracker smacks I made him eat crow.... I signed up and finished my first half marathon in 2014 and since have completed 6 more,  also 6 Ragnars, and 1 Ultra Ragnar, a 10 miler, multiple 10k's and 5k's. I have 7 half marathons, one 20 miler, and one full marathon scheduled for 2017...all free by the way..as there is a great local race directer who gives you 2, yes 2 free race entries for volunteering at 1 race...I have signed up to volunteer for 3 races thus getting me 6 free entries into the race series,,,can't beat that.
I have an amazing boyfriend who supports my running as far as knowing that training runs are required and time consuming on the weekends, but never complains when I get up on a Saturday morning to get a 10 mile run in so that I am home and ready to go watch his boys play basketball, football or soccer depending on the time of year...my only wish is that once just once he saw me cross a finish line, that is my wish for Christmas this year and while I know it is one I won't get I still secretly wish or it anyway. So that is why I run, I run because honestly it gets me through another day, especially on days when I think I possibly can't endure one more. I also run because I have an amazing friend who gets up 4 days a week, meets me at the god awful hour of 4am and we put in at minimum of 5 miles every time we run...she is my "beat feet therapy" girl, she holds me accountable on days when I really REALLY don't want to get out of a nice warm bed...did I mention I live in New England and winter has arrived.